I know I haven't written in exactly a month, I'm sorry readers. I got really swamped with work and had my whole schedule thrown off with hurricane sandy, but I'm back and will continue to blog more regularly, promise!
I don’t know what it is but it always seems as if as
soon as I start seeing/dating someone people start coming out of the woodwork
and are suddenly interested in me when before they didn’t give me the slightest
chance of day. Just one of life’s mysteries I suppose. It’s as if we as humans
send out a different type of pheromone that smells like “unavailable” and
people always want what they can’t have. People recently have been talking a
lot more to me in bars/clubs when I go out than ever before. Even when I went
upstate this past weekend I had a guy who I knew peripherally in my circle of
friends show me some attention.
Telling someone you are seeing
someone or in a relationship is just awkward. There is no casual way to go
about it. Normally, I don’t have that problem because I’m hardly ever in a
relationship or seeing someone. I know there is nothing wrong with going on a
casual dare with someone you aren’t exclusive with someone else, but in my case
I am. Canada and I have been really good at communicating with each other. We
might not talk everyday but every so often on updating each other about our
lives and projects, work and friends.
Just as awkward as telling someone
you just met you are seeing someone is telling it to an old flame/ex-boyfriend/hookup
buddy that you are. Recently I received a text from a guy who I shared some fun
summer nights with. Ultimately, it didn’t work out because we were too opposite
yet we continued to call each other every so often to have a couple drinks
hangout and then go our separate ways in the morning with me usually making the
“walk of shame” dressed in my going out attire on the train as people are
heading to work.
I’m not going to lie that we all
want to feel attractive. I take it as a compliment that people are more into
me, but at the same time they missed their chance. I remember that I once had a
friend early in my college career that had an obvious attraction to me but I
did not have one for him. Though it felt nice to be wanted I remember I would
call him to hangout when my crush was busy or would blow me off. I know that
sounds like I used him, and maybe I did to an extent, but I honestly did like
him as a friend yet not romantically. We never once got together or hooked up
except for one drunken regretful night. Anyway, one time I called him to go to
a frat party with me and he said he couldn’t because he was going to go on a
DHD (Dining Hall Date) and then watch movies in his dorm room with a guy from
his math class. I felt myself immediately get jealous and asking a lot of
questions about said guy, mentally comparing him with me in my head. It was
just ridiculous. I never had a crush/liked my friend why, suddenly when he
likes someone else, I want his affection back onto me?
Maybe we should all put on our
social media profiles that we are in a relationship just to see what the
response is from the ones we actually like. Maybe they’ll show more interest.
It would be a great social experiment. I’d study it.
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